Week of Hell <3 Gossip Gay!

Well guys..another week completed at the College Boys Live house. I can honestly say that this past week was probably the most interesting week I have experienced here at CBL. This week has been full of laughs, sex, romance and drama....and Gossip Girl...or in this case..Gossip Gay.

Sunday: Sunday we had our chilled out day. I had chat from 8-9 that night. I then went to Parliament House and I met Daniel from CBL TAMPA. He is a real nice guy and extremely cute. But, nothing is going to come of it. We then had our usual after hours party at the house. It was a night of laughs, alcohol and Sarah Palin impressions..lol..

Monday was an extremely laid back day. Nothing major really happened. I just chilled at home and went and ate with the roommates and Daniel. I was pretty much hungover the entire day monday..lol. I was off of chat that night so no chat..yay!!!!

Tuesday was an unusual day...Tuesday was when the shit started hitting the fan. I started getting messages from people, or should I say my so called friends. Very few of my friends were still supportive of where I was living but the majority of my friends turned their back on me. It hurt alot. Friends I had for years were no longer friends of mine anymore. It was rediculous. I guess I know who my true friends are.

Wednesday was another rough day. More friends started turning their back on me. There was, however, a few saving graces. My true friends stuck by my side especially...we will call him Mr X and Matt. Two of the most important people in my life. They are both so sweet and wonderful and have alway been there for me.

Thursday I hurt someone very badly. Someone I used to be inlove with. Someone that we will never have anything again. Things were said to eachother. We said how much we hated eachother. He said he will see me in hell along with my career and I told him that no matter what my career will always be more successful than his. I even said that I will be sitting on the throne of Hell watching his burning carcus infront of me. And I am NOT sorry that I have said all of these things to him.

Friday was cleaning day..so I cleaned and was still upset over the week I had. I also was not feeling well at all yesterday. I was real upset over the people I hurt and I also hurt someone dear to me. I hurt Matt very badly. But I think everything will be fine :) I was so sick cuz he was so angry and upset at me. I do not blame him. Matt is one of the best people in my life. I was so upset when I hurt him. But things are starting to turn around for the better.

Kixy is in town and that has been a real delight!!! He is so wonderful and a great listener. I dished to him for the past couple of days and it has been wonderful. I have also made alot of new friends this past week. I talked to Mr. X today from back home and that made me real happy. Mr X is a sweetie and has always been there for me for years. I also talked to Matt today and everything is better. We have to have a long heart to heart tonight. I am sure things will be fine.

EGYPTIAN UPDATE!!!! The egyptian contacted me again this week. Saying he wanted to surprise me but was not able to. I thought it was sweet but also full of shit. I do not believe anything he says anymore...I have not believed it for a long time. I even wrote something.......

YOU

YOU SWEETLY SMILE
YOU MAKE MY HEART MELT
I'VE LOVED YOU FOR A WHILE
I LOVED HOW IT FELT.

YOU WERE GREAT FOR A TIME
YOU MADE MY HEART SING
ANY MOUNTAIN I COULD CLIMB
BUT NOW YOU MADE IT STING.

YOU STARTED PUSHING AWAY
THEN YOU WOULD COME BACK IN
I WANT TO RUN AND STAY
I'M FILLED WITH ANGRY SIN

YOU SHATTERED MY HEART
THIS LOVE I DONT WANT TO HOLD
I LOVED YOU FROM THE START
NOW YOU MADE ME COLD

I CANT TAKE YOUR WORDS
I CANT TAKE YOUR LIES
YOUR SMILE IS ABSURD
I WANT TO BREAK THE TIES

I CANT TAKE YOUR SMILE
I CANT TAKE YOUR TOUCH
I'VE KNOWN ALL A WHILE
IT JUST HURTS TOO MUCH.

Well guys that is pretty much it...except for the roomates...I really dont have much to say about each individual roommate. I love them all. Aaron has more patience than I ever could hace. Zac is just crazy..nuff said but i love him...Jonathan is well.....me in every way...Brian is so cute and adorable and so caring and thoughtful. I am lucky to have a roommate like him. And Chaz is someone I know I can run to and talk to. All of my roommates are some of the best people anyone could ask for. I dont know where I would be if it were not for them. We all have eachothers back. Yes there are times we get on eachothers nerves but...I would not trade them for anything in the world. Well guys that is all for this week of CBL. Catch the chats and our daily activities! Have a great weekend!!


xoxo
-Gossip Gay!